me being me. help pls

I do my very best everyday as a human being to get up help any and everyone that does for me just be the best overall person to. I give 100 percent to what I love all the time and it not once comes back to me. I apparently don't deserve real love. the world has turned their backs on me..and I'm finally on my last days. when you don't eat.. can't sleep and your just not worth a thing to anyone. soon enough ur just not alive and gone